I haven't talked with a whole lot of people about this journey Heather and I have been on, but I feel the time has come. I can honestly say that I never pictured myself or my family on this road dealing with this. But who does. There are times when I can't stop crying; times I feel so safe in God's unending hope, love and strength; times when I miss Gabby so much I could rip my heart out; times I hold my Bella and thank God for her life for literally what seems like a million times; times I sing to God as loud as I am able. But despite all of this, I have come to rely on and trust in God in ways I never understood before. There is no way, we could have made it through this without the Hope and Mercy God has shown us. Each day is a new adventure, a new way that God will show himself strong in our lives. The Creator of the universe caring for and helping me...I encourage you to meditate on that thought. God cares for you and is here to help you with anything going on in your life...amazing. I will be sharing on this blog more of this journey.
Father's Day was just here, and I wasn't exactly sure how I was going to feel. Mainly cause I think about Gabby alot. And I miss her everyday more than I know how to put into words. But with Father's Day coming...I just wanted to be ok. I spent the day with Heather and Bella just enjoying my family. There was such joy and peace. I remember waking up Sunday morning feeling so refreshed and strengthened. I closed my eyes, while sitting on the edge of my bed, "God, thank you for making me a dad. You are so good." At that moment, my entire being was flooded with peace and joy and life and hope. God is good. He is my hope.
I want to thank all of you who have been praying for us, and those of you who have shared your stories with us. I never knew so many people around me have experienced similar situations. We are so grateful for your continued prayers and support.
Please feel free to comment on this blog and send it to anyone. If you know someone going through the loss of a child or with an infant in the hospital, please send them the blog and you are welcome to give them our info. I pray that God will use us to minister His hope and healing to those who need it.
